Hiatus-why?
Somebody told me that you only wrote when you were sad. Well, that’s not particularly true. I keep writing, keep having my diary, together with keeping my daily income-expense report. It’s just that I don’t publish it considering:
1. I really loathe to be the object of a conversation. And to know that somebody link one of my writing and have a talk about it while I don’t even know that somebody even ever read my blog, I hate that. Xixi. Can you imagine that you had a very tough time and the persons who gave you that tough time talked about you and might be laughing at you? Horrible rite?
2. I ever take a glimpse of people (muzakkars) talking something like “sekarang mah ga perlu proposal2an, cukup liat fb ama blognya”. Well. I am not a good writer not that I’m a good speaker. And I know that I’ve never posted any qualified materials in my blog. Well, I don’t like writing a long article nor serious article. If I really did that, I’ve sent it to editor to be published and become a paper. Hehe. No really. I dislike the system where XY is offered a lot of set of XXs then it decides which qualified XX will be suitable for it. That relly sounds as if you are engineering a norganism. And to know that from the blog and fb, it considers it as commercial media…well hallo…
I do admire some of it. I did have a crush on one of it. I know my capacity and I admit it are way out of my league. “mereka tampak indah di mata rani, tapi keadaan rani yang sekarang tidak memungkinkan” -> a quote of one of my fav novels. But to consider that the sets of XX displayed through FB and blog, what’s the difference between that and those who are physically displayed in the you-know-what place?
3. I am very busy. Haha. I think this is the most appropriate reason from all three. I just had my cQE and it was very tiring and torturing. It’s kinda drama that I do hope a happy ending one. My daily activities are reading papers, writing programs, compiling database, doing my research, and reading papers and papers and papers. After the day, I become so tired that my brain shut my body as soon as I lay on bed.
Well, PhD life. whadda u expect? it becomes like an endless circle of work and tiresome and short break and work again haha I do admire those people who can still build a family while taking PhD. Must be a tough one. Four thumbs up for you.
2 comments February 27th, 2009
